Today was quite joyous for me as a parent. Alison took her first big step towards gaining independence today and road her bike to school. Riding to school in our community is quite normal but we have been slow to let go; partly from fear of the unknown and typical parental nanny fears. In another light it was magical to be present for a pivotal moment in our daughters journey.
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This past Thursday I had my last chemo treatment and in my mind I’m hoping that this is the end of cancer treatments but in reality there is no end game. Cancer doesn’t get cured when you have it but we can hope for remission after treatments and then over time we learn to move on but cancer will always be there lurking. We have to do what we can to stay positive and being positive is not always possible and yesterday was a reminder for me to not get trapped or wallow in pity or self doubt but we are human and after nine months of moving forward with all my positive energy I went in the other direction. Self doubt, fatigue and the “I just want to get through this” derailed me and paralyzed my thoughts but throughout the day I found myself coming around and getting back on track. We are human and we are wired to survive but sometimes we just need to take a moment to reflect on what it is that is moving us forward.
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I absolutely love this photo. Alison spent the week in Disneyland and every picture was nothing but total happiness.
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When I met with my oncologist last Summer I was told to bring a list of all the supplements that I take and what was interesting to find out was that basically you cannot take any supplements when you’re going through chemotherapy and radiation as they can negate the positive outcomes of the adjuvant treatment. The main concern is with vitamin C, antioxidants and anything related to mushrooms that could affect the liver. Being concerned that I would not get enough nutrients my oncologist said “just eat normal food and balance the diet.” At the time that was a bit of a shock to me considering that I was used to consuming the stupid amounts of nutritional supplements for cycling and training in general.
During that first round of treatments back in September I went vegan and I drank a lot of homemade carrot juice. Each week my blood got tested and over the course of those treatments some of my immune markers improved after initially tanking in week two but on balance I was eating a very good diet and when you’re getting your blood tested weekly you’re able to see that as well. After a few months I had to agree with the comment about eating whole foods. My friend Noelle also made a very good case for plant based foods during treatments and she was right.
Anyway, after almost 6 months of not taking any supplements I have come to the conclusion that the supplement industry is a bit of a scam and we waste a lot of money on it. Going forward I could see using a basic drink mix like scratch labs but for everything else I’ll make it myself. I think a lot of athletes, especially endurance athletes, put a lot of crap in their body and too much sugar, too many supplements and over the long course eventually this will affect you in a negative way in my opinion.
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Cancer treatments take a long time but then the point is to go through it so you have a “long time” and the process is a grind. In football terms I’m at the 20 yard line. Each treatment moves you up the gridiron and you hope the playbook has the right move to make the next play. In real terms I’m closing in on my third treatment and have three more to go. Each treatment has been harder on my body than the previous. You have to be tough and grind it out. I’ll be channeling my inner running back while my immune system takes the defensive tackle spot. A good omen I’m sure.